flaws and all

Life... lots of challenges faced.. but slowly, i will begin to understand. There is a reason y things happened in our lives.. no matter wat, we have to be brave to face it.

School has been quite tough. Kinda worried actuallie looking at the subjects i'm taking this time. Guess it's time for me to start reading and writing more. and of course.. THINK MORE DEEPLY. It's also more practical, as i would have to apply the theories learnt to the current issues today.

Whole of last week, did a lot of thinking.. Course mates did share about their feelings on our particular degree course that we're in. It's scary due to the very thick stack of notes received for the whole year.. All of us did have second thoughts but i guess, i'll just wait and c results for my exemption exams which is on this coming Sunday! Doa.. Doa.. and terus berdoa.. I'll leave all to HIM. Insya'allah, i'm hoping that everything will be alright...

Other den school.. the sec2 kids have been making my week. Even though they are 'nakal', but they will jus make me smile at the end of the day... esp with their lame remarks.. grrh.. but i enjoy being arnd them.. just cant stop laughing with their lame remarks, at times.. =p

Ok, enugh for this week.. after all the deep thinking and all.. while surfing arnd, i found this from someone's blog..  very meaningful.. setiap apa yg berlaku, adalah kehendak Illah...

Ketika kumohon pada Allah Kekuatan ..
Allah memberiku Kesulitan agar aku menjadi Kuat ..

Ketika kumohon pada Allah Kebijaksanaan ..
Allah memberiku Masalah untuk Kupecahkan ..

Ketika kumohon pada Allah Kesejahteraan ..
Allah memberiku Akal untuk Berpikir ..

Ketika kumohon pada Allah Keberanian ..
Allah memberiku Kondisi Bahaya untuk Kuatasi ..

Ketika kumohon pada Allah Bantuan ..
Allah memberiku Kesempatan ..

Ketika kumohon pada Allah sebuah Cinta ..
Allah memberiku orang-orang yg perlukan bantuan untuk Kutolong ..

Aku tak pernah Menerima apa yang Kupinta ..
Tetapi aku menerima segala yang Kuperlukan ..
Doa ku sudah terjawab …

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A beautiful song...
" Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you....."

Somehow, this song is able to tell me my story.
This few weeks, lots have happened...

Just taking things one step at a time in life... to reach the stage of ikhlas in
doing whatever we wanna do, is not easy.

Well, things didn't go the way that we wanted.. so it ended..
I do feel bad and disappointed about it.. but i guess this is the best solution to solve
the problem that we have been going through... I just hope that he's doing ok.. haiz..

Phew.. at last.. it's over.. UNOFFICIALLY GRAD!!!!!

OK, but this is the scary part... the next lap of life...

Anyway, i think i screwed up for my paper.. but hopefully... whatever i wrote, i will get some marks..
There goes those beautiful marks.. The only thing now is to hope for the best...
Ok, stop talking abt school.. there're so many other things tt are happening and will be happening..

1 March- Outing with beloved MPP
3 March- Getting ready for industry presentation
4 March- Industry Presentation & DnD
17 March- Course
3 May- Jamilah 2 (Wohoo!!!)
22 May- GRAD!!

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Ok, so update abt wat happened today..

Ok, S called. Meet up with S's Mum? Ok,lar..i mean i understand mak dier sakit.. so i niatkan cuma
nak melawat jer,lar.. jgn dier ingat other things sudah... haiz.. kadang2 susah la nak tolak.. takkan nak
tolak diernyer permintaan.. takpelar.. just go to c how she's doing...

drove me back smalam. talked in the vehicle... settled things.. U know, sometimes in life, we just have to
give the person a second chance.. so ya.. mayb this will help..
now things are settling back as how it is... well, if it still doesnt get better, den so be it..

Hmm.. have been thinking.. u know.. sometimes when u hope that it will happen, but it didnt, that's where
i will start to give up and try to let it go.. but it's hard.. but i think i have to now. this cant be going on....

feelings can only be felt
it cant be forced
can be developed
it cant be shared
can be nurtured
it cant be seen

i wished
it could be a potrait
that can be shown
a story
that can be told
and..
a picture
that means a thousand words....

so, it's him, him or him.. haha.. only God knows..
Pasrah, Tawakal dan Redha... mohon petunjuk...

Something to share with all.... Read something sent to my inbox... about this:

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less

Start of new entry.. start of a new phase in life... Everything jus ended like that.. Agreed with what shikin said... Every ending has a new begining... Life.
The end of another chapter in my lifebook... the begining of a new one. I will miss the gossips w the 2 lovely babes... kin & sha... =p the lunchie-talks... the never-ending life-stories.. the small secrets we shared.. and ya.. those MP moments.. OMG! im gonna miss all of those badly... Life. Move On.

Yst. was one tt made me tear-out so much! i think cos i had enugh of it. like reallie had enugh of it! it deteriorate. no more ups.. i feel speechless. not knwing wat to talk abt.
in e past, there were lots that cud be shared, bt not now.
in e past, it was there.. but not now.
in 'e past, everything was beautiful, but not now.
and in 'e past, i thot tt this is it, but not now.

Life. Move On. Carried away.

Called. She came. My cramps worsened. badly. I dunno wats wrong with me! Mayb i'm just tired of all this for now. Or mayb things are just not meant to be... Sometimes i wished that i had half of both.. and den.. it will be a perfect.

Life. Move On. Carried away. Be thankful.

~What's meant to be will always find a way.~